Monday, April 4, 2011

Random thoughts [3]

I was waiting for Rizpa, its then this big bull came to the road. It stood in the middle of the road, not minding the traffic. I missed that snap. I terribly wanted a good cam with me. I was going to coimbatore after my cousin's engagement. I'd to meet Rizpa too.I'd a good chat with him about his new crush[roomie note it]. After a while he dropped me at the KSRTC bus stand trissur. Coimbatore bus was waiting for me. I got in and searched all the seats in a glance. The seat near conductor's was free. I jumped in and settled there. It's after a five minutes this guy showed up. A fat one. The seat was small as it can hardly accommodate two medium sized ones. Our guy didn't even care that the seat is for conductor and sat beside me. It became very difficult me to sit there. Bus started moving.

I told you before right? I love traveling. When I'm boarded, the only thing I'll be worried about is that the destination is getting nearer. The journey is going to end there. The guy who sat near me didn't even smiled at me. He started eating something. So I didn't want to disturb him either. I'm telling you, you should tell a hi/hello to the one sitting next to you in bus/train or whatever. In these days nobody does that. I always felt like jailed in bus/train when I was travelling alone. When someone is talking to you then its something else. You wont feel lonely. You wont be bothered about the time. etc.

I was thinking about something. You know it's not my mistake. According to "The monk who sold the Ferrari" there are about 60k thoughts going through our mind everyday. Bus passed a beautiful girl. Face of a girl whom I saw last day in bus came to my mind. She was gorgeous. I fell in love at the first sight itself. I am sure if I was there in that bus a few more minutes I would have proposed her. And I regret about the 30 minutes I was with her for not to do so. Well. Anyway she was not from my religion. But.. Oh just forget it.

It started to rain. I could smell that smell of fresh sand. I hate people telling I love rain n all. Who doesn't love rain? The girl's face came to my mind again.

I started thinking about the marriage. Well I have no plan for one soon but you know. One might have some doubts.

What if she won't listen to me? What if she wear dresses I can't accept. I mean much exposing ones. I found this one as the most important and annoying one. Girls do wear exposing ones to attract boys? Well I don't think no good boy will come to her with any good intention seeing that. A boy know where a boy will look in a girl and for what. Thats why he tell his gf or wife to dress neatly. But it always end up in fight as girl telling "Don't act like my dad".

If a girl doesn't get respect and just getting hits then is just the flesh. Its a matter of money then. [I'm not insulting any of my female readers. With all my respect I'm telling you to take this positively. I'm not anyone to advice you on your dress. Its just my opinion.]

What if she doesn't like my parents?, What if she doesn't like my friends? What if.. What if.. I gave up. Rain stopped.

I found my self thinking about marriage again. How can you marry one whom you don't know. The girl's face came to my again. I didn't knew her before. So it was just lust then. So there is no such thing as love at first sight.

Six months will be enough. I thought; to know one better[Sometimes I felt like one lifetime wont be enough]. A friend's words came to my mind. She said this after having a fair friendship of two years.

"I like chatting with you, talking with you, Walking with you and etc. But thats it. Nothing more than that. I cant think of any other way." Having known each other for more than two years she couldn't love me. Then how can I expect one who doesn't know me at all to fell in love with me because of a knot around the neck? Or is it like that? Is it just an adjustment?

I was happy as it rained. When I rains the leafs n all becomes real green and roads become sexy black. I love it. I was smiling simply.

To tell you the truth, I fell in love with life. I know whats going through your mind. Well. let me explain. Do you smoke? If not, I don't think you'll understand it. The more you smoke, the more you'll understand.

Suppose you are sitting alone. And you are smoking. You had a couple of cigarettes and you are smoking the last one. And you are taking the last puff. You will die for a few more puffs. You'll terribly want some more. If you really enjoy smoking.

Its same in case of life.

When you become crazy for life. Dying to get a few more happy moments always, Then you are said to be in love with life. It doesn't matter, whatever phase you are going through. You'll enjoy it. We all know. Without sadness there is no value for happiness.

One nice girl was standing at the front end. But I was day dreaming too much and forgot about her. At the time I get back to her, she had already established a full duplex connection with somebody else from the back row.


  1. Its so good to read you...

    You speak out what guys normally never admit - like exposing dresses of girls..

    Great read...

  2. :) hmm, interesting post. if you were here in bangalore, we would have talked about this. that would have been nice. than having to write a long 'comment' here. so next time u're here, maybe we will?

    keep writing.

    sometimes (not always), i too want the journey to keep going, to not reach the destination.


  3. @ Nikita
    Thanks for commenting. Visit often. :)

    @ Prateek
    I wish I was there. Yeah will try to come one weekend. I have many things to tell.

  4. Every time i read your blog.. I feel, Why can;t i write so good.. Anyways you are good!! And lot of truth about life!!

    Keep going.. Good One!!

  5. Hahaha!!

    Point noted Roomiie!!
    Initialising Mission Rizpa.

    By the way, a 2nd point noted too!
    You have admitted your attraction towards the "Veiled Ones" (Ya, Thattam itta Thaathakuttikal thanne) :) in public!

    ...and about your question,
    "What if she doesn't like my friends?"
    When in doubt, DISCARD!:)

    The smoking example, excellento!!

    LOL at & the "full duplex" connection.

  6. wow...i just love reading ur posts..ther s so much common between us...gr8 man,,,kudos..

  7. @ Vijendra
    Thank you :) Visit often. Have fun. Thanks again.

    @ Nibul
    Roomiee. First of all I want to tell u that I terribly miss you.

    About the Veiled Ones, Its not true. I dont fall in love with all the Veiled Ones comes in my way. But she was.. u should hv seen her. ooooh

    Yeah no doubt about DISCARDing. :P

    Smoking kills. And Laughing is a healthy habit. Have fun roomie. Love ya.

    Thanks for commenting. :) Visit often. Enjoy the life.

  8. very few guys talk like this.. i liked the way you wrote :) n comparing the smoking puffs to life.. true though :)

  9. @ Pria
    Thank you. One thing I noticed is that many girls are agreeing to what I said. But in real world i didn't see anyone. But now I feel happy because some of us can see the things as they are.

    And these days many girls smoke! ;)

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    do visit and share ur thoughts

  11. Loved reading this, very much straight frm the heart.. u knw many guys doesnt admit wt u said, bt again u always talk out..

  12. @ Angel
    Thank you. But u know girl just dont want boys like me. One girl once told me that,

    good girls - bad boys
    bad girls - good boys

    Only that pair will work. :)

    Thank you. Have fun.

  13. @Randeep
    Why did you cal that girl ANGEL?
    She has clearly stated her name as DEVIL INCARNATE!
    Bad Move.


    Im Quoting you
    "girl just dont want boys like me. One girl once told me that,

    good girls - bad boys
    bad girls - good boys

    Only that pair will work. :)"

    which one are you? Good/Bad?

    & What kind of Girl are you gonna get? I know personally that you have tried to get more than half a dozen girls, and it included both categories of Good & Bad!

  14. This is not a Democratic Blog!
    You should my comments be APPROVED to be visible?

  15. @ Nibul
    Do you have any problem with me calling her Angel?

    You personally know I tried more than half a dozen girls?

    You have spent more than three years as my roommate and asking me whether I am good or bad?

    Did I ever reject one of your comment? n still u telling this is not a democratic one?

    Onn podo :P

  16. immmersed in reading this ,, loved it !! :)..
    There is no Love in a relationship without adjustments and sacrifices :)
    Good Luck with search for Love of your life :) ..
    your each post brings so many random thoughts in my mind :) ..keep writing

  17. You HAVE rejected some of my previous comments!

    You Tyrranic Blogger!

  18. @ Nesi
    Hmmm... But I felt something wrong on that Good Luck. As, go try, you wont get anyone. :P

    @ Nibul
    Get out of here. I dont think that I rejected any of your comments.


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